Alone but happy

This time of life is interesting. Especially for a single 25-year-old. I really don't know what it would be like to not be single. Maybe I wouldn't like it...yet, I have a hard time believe that is true. :)

So, I'm living in Tooele, Utah with my Grandparents. This is the first time I've ever lived somewhere without people my own age close by.

Home (as of late): Bobby, Kayleen, Kevin and Missy Carlson

Mission: Companions

Rexburg: Roommates, classmates, ward members

So, you see, this is a new experience for me. I've never had to walk into a singles ward alone. Never had to go out and make friends. Roommates are always built-in friends. I mean, eventually I make more friends, but I always have someone to start off with.

I felt good about moving to Tooele. I had other options...possible options anyway. But something inside said, "Tooele." Maybe the Spirit. It feels right.

But, as a friend said to me yesterday, just because it's right doesn't always make it easy. Right now it's weird. It's nice to be with my grandparents. But it's weird to be alone in the sense of young people.

But I'm happy. Happy and content. I'm learning who I am. I'm changing the things I don't like about myself and trying to embrace the things I do like about myself. I'm noticing small things. Like how the wight water shooting out in the fields looks heavenly up against the blue sky. Or how the sky touches the earth over a spacious field of green.

Simplicity is key.

All powerful

There's nothing quite like nature to instill some wisdom in a person...or at least lead a person into some kind of awakening.

I love the ocean. I've always loved the ocean. It's so big. Bigger than I am. It reminds me of God. It's beautiful, powerful, and calming. It smooths the rough edges of pointy stones. It washes up beauty. It reaches deep and carries all sorts of creatures.

I was able to swim in the ocean on Monday. I realized it had the power to sweep me away. I kept getting further and further. First my knees. Then my stomach. Then my chest. Then up to my neck at times. I'd stand there, waiting for a wave to come in; then I'd jump and ride it toward the shore. Some were small waves, and some were so large they forced me under, crashing down over my head. It was exhilarating and powerful. I realized God has the ability to take me away. But he's leaving me here. For now, for some purpose. I need to be happy. And I need to take care of my life.

New discoveries

*There's only supposed to be one space between a period and another sentence. Huh...when did this happen? I was always taught to put two spaces. Interesting...

*Periods ALWAYS go INSIDE quotation marks, even when the quotation marks aren't around a sentence. Example: He says he wants us to be "friends." I don't really know if that sentence makes sense...but you get the idea.

(I discovered many more grammar/editing rules last semester...those two stuck out to me.)

*I'm allergic to mangos. I get tons of canker sours, my lips get all funky chapped like, and my entire mouth itches...inside and out, around my lips. Weird. I've never been allergic to anything before...that I knew of apparently.

*I've had short hair for the past long while, but I've let my hair grow (I need a change) and I forgot how much I love twirling it through my fingers. Unsophisticated, I know, but enjoyable.

*I love the show charmed. I'm glad TNT and WE show reruns because I never watched it when it was originally aired.

*I play my guitar more when I have free time.

*CrossFit. (Crossfit is found everywhere in every state; this is the one my sister and bro-in-law have been taking me to.) The coolest most fun exercise experience I've ever had. Check it out. You won't be sorry.

*Pants from Thai land. We're moving and that means we've been going through tons of things and getting rid of a lot. We kids have been divvying up some of my dad's things. I got his Thai pants. (He served his mission in Thai Land.) They're these silk pants that are kind of like one size fits all, and you tie the remaining fabric in a knot to fit you. I LOVE these pants.

Discovering new things is fun. :)

Two things

First:
I LOVE this show. My roommies got me hooked last semester. Aside from Roseanne, I don't think I've ever laughed as hard as I do while watching a show as I do during this one. In fact, probably a little more than Roseanne. I must love the first name TV shows.
Reba. Oh how I love it.

Second:

I love this song. The music video is touching. Watch it. It brings me to tears.

That's all for now. :)

New experiences

Starting in September, I'll become really familiar with this company...



Where I'll be participating in PR work on behalf of...



And...



Life is changing. I'm excited.

Lookin' like a hot mess

This is my most recent song. I didn't do my hair today...hence the hoodie. I wear a hood all day long on occasion...when I'm not going anywhere. :) Anyway...new song. Pretty simple. No name yet. It's kind of different from songs I've written before. Not all songs can have happy endings.

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Yesterday

Marked two years since I've been home from my mission.



I loved the experience. I love the people I met. I love the memories I made. I especially love the lessons I learned.