Comm Therapy and bad words

A new episode of Comm Therapy is up! Warning... we talk about "bad" words and "fowl" language in this episode. Keep young listeners at bay. ;) Find links HERE

I am not depressed

I am, however, discouraged.

The job search ain't goin' well. Well, it ain't goin' the way I would like it to go.

It's easy to say you trust God's plan when it's a month prior to actually moving into an unknown situation. And then the gap in time closes, and all the sudden you realize the reality of life might slap you in the face in the near future.

Hahaha...this is the story of my life, isn't it?

Sometimes, I think I should just join a cruise ship as the deck-hand and I'll get meals, a nice little bunk...and a consistent pay-check.

What I need to be thankful for in all of this unknown is this: I am not depressed. This is a big thing for me. I often find myself in a depressed state. But right now, I am not depressed.While there is fear gnawing at my stomach, I still have this peaceful feeling at the same time....weird, I know.

And, in all reality...I AM LIVING MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. So, even thought I FEEL like it's taking me forever to get my life started...I'm actually living it. It started 27 1/2 years ago. And I'm enjoying the journey.

I will not end up on the streets.




I hope. ;)

I have opinions

My opinions are very nicely portrayed in THIS HERE BLOG POST by Josh Weed on "The Weed."

"Silence is abhorrent and leads to shame, confusion and darkness."

"...we need to talk about hard things. We need to talk about things that are uncomfortable. You can sweep an issue under the rug, but it's still going to be in the room with you."

I'm sharing this blog post, not because Josh Weed is by any means an authority on church matters, but because he echoes my views and opinions on the matter. I feel this way about homosexuality in the church, pornography in the church, drug and alcohol addiction in the church, mental illness...and any other HARD thing that affects US as Latter-day Saints just as much as it does the rest of the non-Mormon world. Pretending it does not exist will NOT make it go away.

Just my (and Josh Weed's regarding at least one of the topics mentioned above) two cents.

Also, that's what my song, Fickle Weather, is about.





Favorite scripture: James 5:16-- "Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much."

Let's open up, pray, and begin to heal.

Passive Aggressive

Hi. If you hate passive-aggressiveness as much as I do, you should check out the latest episode of Comm Therapy HERE.

P.S.-I've been known to be passive aggressive. I'm not exempting myself from this behavior. :)

7 things I feel like telling you

1) I've decided to commit to the "couch to 5k" program. I've thought about this before but didn't commit. But, I want to try to be a runner. And in order to try, I have to actually try. So, this will be my trying effort. If I don't like it at the end, then I'll stop trying to like running. I realize I'm picking a tough time to start the program. It's about 8-10 weeks long, depending on how long you stay on each set. And, I'm SURE the rain will come any day now. But I can't put it off. I want to do it. So, I may have to invest in some actual rain gear. I never have before...I'm from Oregon and I'm just used to rain. But running in it? While I'm trying to like running? I need some rain gear. I hope the fact that I'm beginning this trying-to-like-running gig in the Fall in Seattle won't hinder my actual ability to like it. But I just don't want to put it off until next Spring. Ugh...just writing it out is making me less enthusiastic about it. It's sunny outside right now, but I can just envision the rain pouring outside, and me NOT wanting to go jogging in it. Bleh. But still, I'm going to TRY.

2) Musical confession: I like Katy Perry. Gah. Blame it on her last name. I don't know what it is, really. I just really like her. Go figure.

3) I'm so glad my favorite shows are starting up again. Like, it probably brings too much joy to my heart. Parenthood. X-Factor. Switched At Birth. Dancing With The Stars. Grey's Anatomy.

4) I've been doing the 40 Days Closer to Christ, Book of Mormon reading program. What I've come to find is...I don't really like it. It's too much about cramming the reading in to fit within the allotted time frame, and I lose focus more than when I take my time and pick specific topics to look for and highlight during each read. BUT...I will say, it's getting me back into reading on a regular basis, which is a definite PLUS.

5) I find the election stuff really emotionally disturbing. I'm sad that there's such a strong divide in America, and that the election process is looked at as a game rather than a privilege, responsibility and blessing.

6) My sister and I made some of the greatest apple fritters EVER. We got the recipe from the Worldwide Ward Cookbook. We paleoized it (not really on purpose, but because that's all we had, and it was Sunday and we couldn't get the "real" ingredients) but they seriously turned out AMAZING. Basically all we changed was using coconut milk instead of regular milk, and rice flower instead of regular flower. We still used a little sugar in it, and sprinkled sugar on top. Really really yummy.

7)I've applied to almost 30 jobs in Seattle....NOTHING. I need prayers and good thoughts. I'm starting to stress a little. BUT, I feel so good about my decision to move there, so I know it will work out.

Seattle home

This is where I'll be living in Seattle. Can't wait.

Still going...an update on going paleo

Once upon a time, I planned to create a paleo blog. I did create it, but I never kept up with it. The blog, that is. I did keep up with the paleo lifestyle, however. It was NOT a fad.

It's been over a year since I took the paleo 30 day challenge, and decided to incorporate it into my every-day life. And it's been a year, this Saturday, since I wrote this blog post.

I've actually stuck with it, people. Why? Because it's a lifestyle. Seriously. It's not a fad diet. I haven't posted progress 'til now due to that very reason. It's not a fad diet. Therefore, I have not lost the weight quickly. It's taken time. And, I still have plenty to go, but I'm sure it will come off in another year...and I'm just fine with that. Oh...AND, I walk alot. And once in a while, I do some body weight stuff.
I'm about 35 lbs down...give or take. I've got a few "then and now" pics for you. (Not before and after...because I'm still going...so, after what?)

I've got at least 40 more to go, so here's to another year!