A New Set of Problems

I'm not naive. I realize a new life would only bring new problems. But I'm ready for a change of pace. Different problems.

I have so much to think about right now. Do I want to continue on down the HR career path? Or do I want to make a drastic change? Apply for Teach for America? Go to Grad School for Social Work or Counseling? Decisions decisions. It ultimately comes down to A) Do I want to make lots of money in a job I don't care much about? Or B) Make little to no money in a job that would make me feel alive?

I've been kinda, sorta, maybe seeing someone for the past few months. That, in and of itself, is a complicated mess. Maybe not the relationship itself, but my feelings, emotions, insecurities, and indecisiveness. Things are progressing reaaaallllyyyy slowly. Partly my doing, partly his. I'm not ready to share much about my relationship with him, because there are a lot of variables involved...that typically are not present when you commit to a relationship in your early 20s. I am in my 30th year of life. Dating means something different...and often comes with more decisions than when you're 20. Maybe you're picking up what I'm putting down. Or maybe I'm being too vague. I'm not sure what I'd prefer. Anyway...my brain is overwhelmed.

This summer had brought so much hardship. Close family friend died suddenly, drowned in a reservoir. Heart-wrenching, to say the least. I've been homeless for the last month. No fun. Couch surfing...no consistency. I threw my back out about a month ago, still not healed. My car was broken into and expensive valuables were stolen from my trunk. I don't feel like explaining why they were in my trunk...but it was a fluke occurrence. I'm tired. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally.

I'm ready for a new life. A new direction. A new path. Can someone spin me really hard and see which way I point?